What made you stop being an addict?

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

How do you get a girl to like you?

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

What makes a woman attractive?

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

I am skinny, I have been doing 100 pushups a day for more than a month and am seeing very few results, everything is so unfair, I workout more than anyone I know and am still skinny, why cant I build muscle?

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

Why are girls supposed to have a stereotypical "hourglass" body shape, and why if you dont have an "hourglass" body shape you get treated differently? It doesnt make any sense to me.

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

If you caught a shoplifter at your yard sale, how would you handle it?

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

How do I overcome attachment issues?

So I'm still hanging on this lie.

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

This was February 2019.

Are LGBT people accepted in Japan?

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

What happened to everybody's thick skin? It used to be that people really didn't get offended, now however, everybody gets offended by the least little thing.

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

And I can also talk to them now.

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

Do you have any opinion on Japanese writer/actor Yukio Mishima?

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

What can I do after 18 cops raided my home, without a warrant, seeking a person who didn't live there and wasn't there, and also went through all of my stuff? The person wasn't on the lease, and they didn't see him enter.

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

How can I handle my distrust and jealousy for my partner?

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

Now how do you quit your addiction?

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

My stepmother has banned me from the family. Can she legally keep me from going to my father's funeral?

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

How might an Indian girl respond to someone saying "I love you"?

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

Just keep trying

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

I did it in my administrator's office.

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

Read that again ☝️